Hello..

I'm not really sure what to write. I know I haven't been around dA for ages, but it seems I come to think of this place when I'm not feeling too well. Guess it makes me remember the support I used to have here. Thanks for all the wonderful comments, even though I'm not around, it warms my heart.

Anyway, just wanted to get something off of my chest. I had to make, what I feel is, the toughest descision of my life last Thursday. To end the life of one of my cats, someone that had been a part of my family for 8 years..

On Monday I took her to the vet, where Busan got medicine for 10 days (her liver wasn't functioning the way it should), but on Thursday it went from bad to worse.. She was really down that morning, wouldn't eat or drink, and our local vet recommended taking her to one of the larger, nearby city vet stations for better care.

I won't (or simply can't) describe everything in detail, just that she got so sick within a few hours upon arrival, that she couldn't even sit.. Me and my boyfriend sat beside her where she lay on the table, wrapped in a soft red blanket. The vet said the best thing for her would be to be put to sleep.. I never thought I would be able to make such a descision, but strangely I nodded, as I felt my heart breaking, and tears rolling down my cheek. As I was sitting there beside Busan, she somehow managed to crawl down into my lap, as if to say that everything was going to be ok.

We got a special room for her, with lit candles. Shortly after 3 pm, on October 27:th 2011, Busan went to sleep as I held her in my arms.




Rest in Peace my love.